dads/boyfriends meh, same problem really

This blog is full of complete bullshit. I don't cry when I think of the good times, but I still get butterflies every time I think of them, should I be relying on my body to give me the answer? haha
Maybe it's the best judge because I'm so messed up in my head atm. Maybe I should listen to my heart, however, if I was listening to my heart right now, I would be bingeing on ginger crunch biscuits. Maybe I will just follow my feet, see where my feet want to go and just let the good times roll because I am young and free with no legal contracts binding me. I think I've gone numb, numb inside because I can't feel it, I can't feel the effect this has had on me and one day it's going to dawn on me that I no longer have you there like you were when I was little and I'm a bit scared.